Tourist or Traveller? by Dr. Shefali

真实

It feels like real, 
I can feel your long hair by the boost of wind,
It feels like real,
I can see your smile looking at me at the sea,
It feels like real,
Because I can really feel my heartbeats.

Our picture that you capture,
Our video that you record,
Standing by your side,
While laughing,
It feels like real.

Watching your smile, 
While your long hair blowing because of the wind, 
Make me feel calm and grateful having this feeling for you. 

"No need to wait I will find money to make you more naughty"
But then I said "If I can wait for you since 6 years ago. Why i cant wait you now?"
The conversation feels like real, my heart was in sorrowful.

Don't wake me up,
I want to tell him everything,
Making more conversation,
But my heart still in pain,
I cannot hold it.

Then my eyes widely open,
But the pain was real,

I am ball of tears.

1:00 PM and I look at my phone,
With the hope he reply my IM this morning since a month ago,
But it wasn't 
I understand and it is okay.

I thought it was real and I really hope it is,
Even it is hurt..
As long as I can see your face
Because you make me feel my pulsation,
That I've never feel before,
I'll be wait.

我爱你 卡马鲁. 伊克万 ...

Story of my Life

A positive person can turn into negative,
A kind person can turn into a devil,
A best friend can turn into stranger
An expectation isn't same with the reality,
Life is so much beautiful
But easily become worst.

It is all about people's surround you
Influence yourself
Turn you into who you will become.

When people say bad about you
Or maybe say something behind your back,
It is like those are the words
Written all over your face
All over you.

The power of your inner,
Keep saying it positive
To not falling down into your illusion
Because Allah bring you here and heal it on time. 

8Letters

Never been bored waiting for a letter to be reply

You are not mine but act like you mine make me feel better

You are all that I see,

You make me feel so good,

I wish you understood.

The feeling cant deny since 6 years ago,

Trying to hide it from everyone closely especially my friend because that is the best way i can do

Till it becomes 8 letters....

An invisible letters that nobody know or even noticed about it

Until i have a courage to confess it to you.

Since the first time i saw your face

Even from a far but I can feel my heart beating

You are the only real one for me

If only you could make you see

See how much i seriously care for you

And how much I could do,

And this is all for you.

Efforts as a sign that i would love you with all my heart

But unfortunately for me, you don't feel the same way

I will be fine because you will always in pray.