I've Sufferend from Toxic Family...

In shadows cast by whispered strife,

Lies the tale of a toxic family's life.

Where love was tainted by venomous might,

And hearts were burdened, consumed by night.

Within those walls, a fractured bond,

A web of poison that spread beyond.

Words like daggers, sharp and cruel,

Sowing seeds of discord, a tragic fuel.

A parent's love, twisted and veiled,

Control and manipulation never failed.

Their words, like acid, ate at the core,

Leaving scars unseen, forever sore.

Siblings once united, now torn apart,

Caught in the crossfire, with wounded hearts.

A battlefield of resentment and hate,

Where empathy withered, left to fate.

Each gathering suffocated with tension,

Fake smiles painted to mask the contention.

Fractured memories, fractured dreams,

Caught in the chaos of silent screams.

But amidst the darkness, a flicker of light,

A beacon of hope, breaking through the night.

For some find strength to break the chain,

To rise above, to heal the pain.

With courage as armor, they choose to sever,

The ties that bind, that poison and tether.

They seek solace in chosen kin,

A family born from love within.

In time, the wounds may slowly mend,

As toxic patterns come to an end.

And those who suffered, bruised but wise,

Find strength anew, as their spirits rise.

For toxic family's grip can be released,

And hearts once burdened may find peace.

In breaking free, they learn to thrive,

And rewrite the tale, where love survives.In shadows cast by whispered strife,

Lies the tale of a toxic family's life.

Where love was tainted by venomous might,

And hearts were burdened, consumed by night.

Within those walls, a fractured bond,

A web of poison that spread beyond.

Words like daggers, sharp and cruel,

Sowing seeds of discord, a tragic fuel.

A parent's love, twisted and veiled,

Control and manipulation never failed.

Their words, like acid, ate at the core,

Leaving scars unseen, forever sore.

Siblings once united, now torn apart,

Caught in the crossfire, with wounded hearts.

A battlefield of resentment and hate,

Where empathy withered, left to fate.

Each gathering suffocated with tension,

Fake smiles painted to mask the contention.

Fractured memories, fractured dreams,

Caught in the chaos of silent screams.

But amidst the darkness, a flicker of light,

A beacon of hope, breaking through the night.

For some find strength to break the chain,

To rise above, to heal the pain.

With courage as armor, they choose to sever,

The ties that bind, that poison and tether.

They seek solace in chosen kin,

A family born from love within.

In time, the wounds may slowly mend,

As toxic patterns come to an end.

And those who suffered, bruised but wise,

Find strength anew, as their spirits rise.

For toxic family's grip can be released,

And hearts once burdened may find peace.

In breaking free, they learn to thrive,

And rewrite the tale, where love survives.

Rough Time in a Relationship

Sometime I dont think 

I am a good girlfriend to everyone.

Even with my current relationship 

I still feel the same pain as before,

Am I too bad?

I told myself that I shouldn’t care to the guy anymore

But why I still feel the same pain again. 

I wrapped my arms around a pillow,

Starring out the window at the weeping willow.

Why does it weep?

Why all the tears?

Is it also weak and filled with fears?

Has it lost it’s love, like I lost mine?

I held back all my tears because I’ve already wasted plenty.

Again, I looked out the window 

And there was the willow accross the street. 

I thought this time will be different 

Like I wouldn’t feel the same pain again.

And with the willow I began to weep. 

When There is Hope, There is Love

J

Knowing each through online games,

Is it the right person you ever show me god?

The way he adore me and took care of me,

I’d never had this feeling in mind

Me and him and thread that bind. 

I think I am in love with him 

Yes, I am sure I do

I tried to confess and he said YES 

But we not been together in a long period of time

For the reason of  “he is not ready yet of having relationship at that moment”

I was devastated! 

I thought on a earlier phase I would have a sweet time together 

But we didn’t 

But I believe when there is hope, there is love.

My journey begin where

I need to make him in love with me

I fight for my love

Although in this phase i need to sacrifice everything included my ego 

As long as I stay and have faith. 

Love Sofi 

Brownies for Him

Wake up in the morning as usual, 

But today is different,

Where myself crave for something sweet.

My belly say that it want to eat brownies.

Luckily I got all the ingredients at home.

Open my closet snack and get all the ingredients on the table.

Searching  for the perfect brownies recipe

I dont know where I get the enthusiasm 

But this time I do really want to make this as perfect as I want 

As usual everytime I’m makin something 

I will posted and share in social media

Especially Instagram story THEN….

Something extraordinary that I never expect 

When he view my story after so long..

And I just noticed it was his birthday 

I was so shocked 

I have no idea whether it is by chance or god are really want to know more about him 

And I dedicate the brownies for him even I could not.

Missing You

Is it strange to say

Everytime I sleep I was dream about you ? 

One day hoping I wake up 

To it coming true. 

Would you call me strange,

With the fact you make my heart fly,

Everytime I see you ?

Would you call me weird

If I’d walk a mine

Just to see you?

My heart is in half.

The piece missing is yours

Like a house without walls,

Ceiling or floors.

Yeahh, Im in imcomplete.

Like a heart with no beat 

Feeling obsolete 

When things got hard,

And I almost giving up,

There is one thing that replays 

In my head.

I’ll love you until the end,

I’ve been through all this,

To me you’re perfect.

Until my dream is a reality

There’s no one else for me

Other than you.

Love From A Far

When I look into eyes,

I feel my heart lighten up 

A many times tried to reach for your attention,

 But I know you will never feel the same.

When I look at your face,

I notice your canine teeth,

 I notice your happy face surrounded your friends

But you will never look at me the same.

When I look at you,

I see my whole world 

My stomach is brimming with an infinity of stomrs,

But I will never be your world.

When I try to approach you,

I get anxious, my palms start to sweat,

My heart starts to race,

My legs start to tremble and I never make it.

Fate has decided that I am better of admiring from a far.

A Gurl On 23rd July

1999

A fresh new birth has come again,

I turning another leaf,

To write another page of story 

Of how began to know words

Such as family, friends, you and love.

I wish to see such days

Where I would feel like a new book

About to write a new story.

Such a day makes me remember life 

As easy as I got here

With love flourishing from my mother.

I still feel the love of family.

Streaming through reins

And for today I pray for such days to come,

Days I will use to look back at the gift of life.

23rd July

Here comes my smile,

Tearing my face for such a day.

A day of gold and rebirth

A day I turn another age to count my life

My sorrow not find this page of my age.

Let the river of happiness and love drown me and those around me.

Happy birthday to the most strong and happiest girl... ME!